Daily Thinspo.

Okay, I've done it.

I went and spent the day on a binge! Mostly fruit, veggies, deli meat, and cheese. I'm such a fat piggy. I'm a disgusting cow. I'm 100 calories over my fitness pal's caloric allowance for the day and it's only 4:30 PM. I didn't even purge! Piggy piggy piggy. I have to stop eating NOW! Guess what set this off? I got on the scale this morning to read the same weight I've seen for three fucking days. Now it will not change for the good tomorrow either, I'm sure. I hate myself.

Fuuuck.

I am trying so hard not to binge right now. :/

Yes!

I'm so proud of myself! For the last three days I have been using www.myfittnesspal.com as a food dairy and today I managed to have the lowest calories. Almost at my daily ultimate goal for caloric intake.

Unwanted advice.

Yesterday or prehaps the day before I "liked" Pro Ana sites on my FB page and so a girl I'm friends with (on the Internet) brings it up in a group we are both in and I get bashed for a few hours. FML.

I hope so.

Daily Thinspo Part 1.

Don't give up!

Food Log.

Breakfast: 

1/2 100 calorie mini brownies 50

Lunch:
Iced coffee 120
Almond Joy egg 150
Pringles Light 70

Dinner: 
Caesar salad 180
Boost 190

Total: 580

I don't care if it hurts.

mind over matter, i wont get any fatter
mind over matter, i wont get any fatter
mind over matter, i wont get any fatter
mind over matter, i wont get any fatter

Great meal idea.

Tuna fish on cucumber. Very low in calories.

Someday.

Remember...

Just Do It.

Daily Thinspo.

Food Log.

Breakfast: 

1.5 cups of strawberries 73
4TBS Cool Whip Free 30

Lunch:
Tuscan Pesto Chicken Salad 280
Pringles 210
Queso 80

Dinner: 
Blueberry banana smoothie 250
Iced coffee with cream 120

Total: 1043

Truly.

Daily Thinspo.

Save Me.

Food Log.

Breakfast: 

Nothing!

Lunch:
Waldorf salad  340
Honey dew melon  61
Pineapple  74
Skinny Cow mocha ice cream  100
Iced coffee 100

Dinner: 
Healthy Choice turkey TV dinner 280
Chocolate yogurt 160

Total: 1115

Mary-Kate and Ashley.

Daily Thinspo

Gone so long.

I've been in and out of the hospital. :/ I'm currently purging + restricting pretty well. Down 10 pounds. They think I might have D.I.D. That's like multiple personality disorder. I don't deny this is likely true. I was at a hospital in New Orleans, LA.

On to brighter things, my diet. I've decided to pre-plan what I may have to eat each day and try to eat as little of it as possible. I really need to stop the vomiting as it's causing me a lot of pain. I'm drinking a lot of fluid, unsweetened iced tea  and water. That does fill me up. Hopefully soon the tens place on my scale will finally read "39". I can't want to get to the thirties.

Reading through these old posts I really feel like a cow. The intent was there but I just couldn't make it. I think I can now.